Too much has gone on

Wow I haven't posted here in so long.

Grad school is going along. I have a 3.68 GPA which is not too shabby if you ask me. Work has sucked the life out of me. No one knew the kid I work with was going to be this disturbed. Thankfully they have hired a second TA which will help me so much. Now I have to advocate for myself to get in my 300 hour practicum. Hopefully all will work out for the best.

Joe is going through a rough patch. He just moved in with Jim and Jill but I'm pretty sure he's having a difficult time living with 4 children and two other adults. Oh yeah, and four dogs.

As always I am constantly stressed.

Family drama, work drama, school drama, Joe drama. I just want to be happy again. I think the business of it all is what's draining me out. Five classes on top of working with a disturbed child all day would probably do this to anyone. In 8 more months I will have a master's degree and hopefully a better job.

All this and life is still good. I am thankful for all that I have, and the strength to go on.

I am terrible at blogging

Now on vacation I have tons of spare time. Thus far I have gone to the Berkshires twice, to my sisters in CT, up to my cabin twice, Salisbury beach twice, and RI's Westerly beach twice.

All is well with my new man and my family.

With all this new spare time I have been going through all my drawers and desk in hopes to renew my love for my apartment. I am constantly trying to make myself feel more at home and happy here. It, as always, is moving slowly but surely.

I'm trying to fill up my spare time with fun stuff and visiting old friends. I had a lunch with Evan today which was awesome! I haven't seen him in almost two years! Crazy how time flies.

Also, Jamaica has turned two this month! It's crazy to think it's already been two years since I brought the little puff ball home.

so crazy lately. As of now I am laid off. May have a job, may not. I'm dating Joe. Life's not too bad.

AH Job!

I have a job, I don't have a job, I have a job, I don't have a job, I might have a job. That's the consensus of e-mails and meetings I've had throughout the last month. All TA's in my program were let go except for one. What the heck is going on around here.

I am so stressed and worried for myself, and for all my kids. They won't have a single familiar face next year if they go through with this. Six days left of school then a mini vacation.

I hope this all works out.

UHGH

I am ready to KILL KILL KILL my insurance company.

They have decided to charge me $45 per office visit to my PCP because they found my Dr's office to be on a lower tier of service than they prefer. WTF

I already paid my damn co-pays (which are triple what they were last year).

I have been on the damn phone for my entire lunch break and I am so pissed.

Busy

I haven't been this busy since my undergrad. Or maybe since I watched the Connolly's. I have one last week of classes and then my first two are done. I'm increasingly nervous about getting good grades, which is silly because I know I'll be ok. I have two more classes of Behavior Management and three more of research methods. I hate research methods. It doesn't help that the book I ordered May 10th still hasn't arrived and classes are finishing. I have an impact of special needs class starting on the 29th but it is only Tuesdays and Thursdays which will be a relief after having Mon-Thursday for the past two months.

I've been seeing a lot of J lately. Like, every other day. He's working in Wellesley too so he has been staying over a couple of times during the week. I'm really starting to like this one which is scary. He's exactly what I didn't want. Another musician with big dreams and little reality. Plus, at 22 years old I'm sure he has a lot of growing to do. I know I'm only a two years and a month older but after everything I've been through I'm weary of dating.

He tried to talk to me last night and I completely shut him down. I told him I have a little crush on him, and he said "I've been meaning to ask you about that." I quickly responded "don't worry about it" and rolled over away from him. I'm still not quite sure what the hell I'm doing right now but I think I'm going to just roll with it.

Hooray

It's ninety degrees today, and it feels like Friday. I know it's only Thursday but my class was cancelled this afternoon, which gives me a good solid 5 hours I now have free time for. I'm planning on relaxing for a bit, then going fishing with JH.

Florida is a mere 8 days away. I cannot wait.

Hello long weekend, hello Florida, goodbye Massachusetts and all the little problems in my life that I try to pretend don't matter.