so crazy lately. As of now I am laid off. May have a job, may not. I'm dating Joe. Life's not too bad.

AH Job!

I have a job, I don't have a job, I have a job, I don't have a job, I might have a job. That's the consensus of e-mails and meetings I've had throughout the last month. All TA's in my program were let go except for one. What the heck is going on around here.

I am so stressed and worried for myself, and for all my kids. They won't have a single familiar face next year if they go through with this. Six days left of school then a mini vacation.

I hope this all works out.

UHGH

I am ready to KILL KILL KILL my insurance company.

They have decided to charge me $45 per office visit to my PCP because they found my Dr's office to be on a lower tier of service than they prefer. WTF

I already paid my damn co-pays (which are triple what they were last year).

I have been on the damn phone for my entire lunch break and I am so pissed.

Busy

I haven't been this busy since my undergrad. Or maybe since I watched the Connolly's. I have one last week of classes and then my first two are done. I'm increasingly nervous about getting good grades, which is silly because I know I'll be ok. I have two more classes of Behavior Management and three more of research methods. I hate research methods. It doesn't help that the book I ordered May 10th still hasn't arrived and classes are finishing. I have an impact of special needs class starting on the 29th but it is only Tuesdays and Thursdays which will be a relief after having Mon-Thursday for the past two months.

I've been seeing a lot of J lately. Like, every other day. He's working in Wellesley too so he has been staying over a couple of times during the week. I'm really starting to like this one which is scary. He's exactly what I didn't want. Another musician with big dreams and little reality. Plus, at 22 years old I'm sure he has a lot of growing to do. I know I'm only a two years and a month older but after everything I've been through I'm weary of dating.

He tried to talk to me last night and I completely shut him down. I told him I have a little crush on him, and he said "I've been meaning to ask you about that." I quickly responded "don't worry about it" and rolled over away from him. I'm still not quite sure what the hell I'm doing right now but I think I'm going to just roll with it.